DIARY: New Chapter

1st October, 06

Dear Diary,

At 10pm sharp, my husband & I was awaiting at the reception of the Damansara Hospital to be admitted for my induction as I was already past 1 week due. At 1am 2nd October they inserted the induced pill & I went to bed praying for an easy delivery by next morning.

At 7pm, I was informed that my dilation did not improve at all..they add dosage. I started to feel the contraction kicking in. Bit by bit, pain by pain. The father to be seems to be a bit worried & advised me to get the “Epidural’. As he for see is going to be a long labour.

At 10am, I was wheeled to the labour room although I was only 2 cm dilated. There, Dr. Guna broke my water bag & suggested that I shall increase the dosage of drip to push the dilation and I took the Epidural without fear.

I had pretty good rest & relax mood until Dr Guna turn up again at 2pm. My dilation only improve by 1cm.. Caesarean was the next thing he suggested if by 3pm the dilation did not improve up to 8cm. In fact he get the midwife to prepare the operation room at 3pm for me..

Once the Dr left, I told my hubby that I had the determination that natural birth was my only choice. Though I sound strong, but deep in my, I had great fear.Not the fear of being cut & pain.. but fear of the double cost it will incur & I will not be able to breast feed my baby later on. Tears start pouring and I started to ask GOD for blessing, if this is what He had planned for us.. I’ll accept it. But, I prayed hard that I’ll go through it without the knife.

I knew He heard my prayer, as my baby has been stable all the while even though its been hours that he’s in me without the placenta. At this time, I heard the nurses were busy preparing the operation theatre for me.

3pm comes, after a checked up.. Dr. Guna found that I was dilated up to 8cm in an hour!! I could not thank God more!! Praise him my Almighty God!

Immediately the midwife started to get me pushing as my baby have not engaged to my pelvic .After pushing for 3 hours & fainted once, again C- section was mentioned. I was ask to be prepared. At this time my anesthetic, Dr. Helmi assure the midwife & myself that I can make it..& ask me to pray. Yes, I need another miracle at this point of time. So, I ask God for favour.

Lucky that Dr. Guna did not give up on me..& my baby is being very supportive… he
has very healthy heart beat. After another half an hour of hectic pushing.. Suddenly I fell asleep.. & my hubby wakes me up with a loud call saying “one more push”. I look at him & saw tears rolling down. I asked, is he out?? Yes.. just one more push.. so I gather all my strength & push the hardest one last time.

My life started to fill with colorful rainbow at the moment the Dr. place my “Precious” on my chest. I had a good look at him & started to call him by his name & whisper to him that I’m your “Mummy”. I couldn’t thank God for more as the Dr. took Isaac away to be cleaned and do the procedure of the Apgar chart.

My precious is perfectly healthy, opened his bright eyes..I couldn’t help but thinking that he’s having a good view at the mummy.. I told my hubby, who has been at my side all this hours.. that.. our life is about to changed this moment on..Now there 3 of us………