Tired

It was some crazy days since middle of September, cannot tell whether days or nites..even up to now.. my new office also have yet to pack. Really 'oo si too ng tak han'.

Weekends pulak, busy with my wedding preparation.Imagine, find a pair of stupid shoe also need to go 5 shopping complexes and took 2 weekend..I'm gonna die..

Then on the other side, my future mother in law pulak, keep on calling, for this and that…'Bila mau balik?''Pick this fella up, pick that fella up'…and never can understand what busy is.. But she never bother the 1st son and wife.. takut of them.. and according to them.. they also busy.. Ya rite work from 9-5pm is busy...then work from 9am-3am is what?

There goes my very own mum pulak.. 'prop pret porp poret'.. say why this and that about the wedding haven't do..lah..why haven't do dresses for my sisterlah… why have to make the samelah..complain about my currently 2 weeks jobless father lah..Besides that worrying for my sisters lah..(i always worried for my sisters - dun know why).

I reach home averagely around 12am everyday.. not to say about my future husband.. worse(2-3am)...stress...then he'll show one kinda of face to me.. as if I cause him that..
He is like that..once stress.. muka masam..never can change..that's why I always say..MONEY=HAPPINESS. Sebab looking for moneylah.. our relationship turn sour.. all the time..i love weekends and then when we travel back to Melaka. he'll treat me differently..soooooooooo nice..can't blame hi.. he works really hard..So basically nowadays weekdays.. I live like a single women..I dun have a solution for this.. I guess I'll never have. Unless I'm a millionhair one day.


How I wish.. to join samlulu and 'tiu mui' to hangout the other day..but have to rush back to work once chosen my wedding gown... & I cincai choose only..as my handphone rings 18 times...!! Phew,fuck! Never have peace of mind..

People say got business means GOOD.. ya.. temporary I accept this so call 'look at the brighter side thingy'.. but how long.?? I really 'beh tahan already' not for a couple of year...I ALMOST collapse in my own office last month...all of a sudden that I heard some bad news from a client that some mistake have occur... the next thing I know...I have heartache and difficulties in breathing & black out.. for a moment.. I dun know how long but it seems foreve.. I thought I have a 'Stroke'!!! Lucky God haven't want me to be there with HIM! The next thing I do.. I did up a 'WILL'. What to give who..and such..

The next thing I did was to meet Chin's fren for some health prescription..for both of us..we spend RM3500 just for some health food..I'm a person who never believe in those thing...afraid of dying young now. Spend a big fortune on this & take it religiously...but it works well!! Really..plus I loss a little weight.& kick off my caffeine habit.

Later I discover that the women who sell us this health food.. actually earning RM60k a month!! Imagine that! Fuck.. a 31 years old simple lady earn that much quietly! And I work like shit , not even earning 10% of hers!!

I WANT TO LEARN & BE AT HER PLACE..NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES..EVEN ITS A DIRECT SELLING!!! Because to think of it..who bothers what u do..? People only see what u drive.. where u live & as for me...what I earn!! I will do it...but in a smart way..I've been through rough way for the pass 10 years...I think I WAS HARD WORKING..enough..but look how far can I go?? Seriously..not that far..!! Believe it or not.. I've not even get a chance to get on a plane..!! For what?? What for??

So fren.. I'll do all my best to learn up some new skill...i have to force up some time to go learning...i can still hang on for the next 2 years..i HAVE TO MAKE IT!! Cheers

Ps: next I will share all my knowledge with all of u!!